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By heather | March 25, 2008
My blogging has been slow this week because I’ve gotten myself in way over my head at work. Not that I blog at work, no sir.
Did you ever notice that the times when you care the least about excelling and getting promoted is usually when opportunity jumps in front of your speeding car and you run over it unprompted, swearing the whole time? Then you have to either take it to the vet, or shoot it and put it out of it’s misery.
So I’m cruising along, finishing assignments I could basically do in my sleep kind of just waiting for maternity leave. I’m not feeling ambitious right now, I feel pregnant. And a little like I have spring fever. And then opportunity hesitates, backtracks with tail twitching, and dashes under my tires.
Now I have to do something about it. This is what I wanted right? Business development! Excitement! Recognition!
Well sure.
Just…not now Lumberg, I’m busy. (And if you don’t recognize that quote, you need to stop reading and get thee to the video store. I’ll wait.)
I’ve also taken on some freelance work. (I may not be feeling ambitious, but I’m still me ya know? Plus I need to pay for kitchen renovations.)
Now I have too much to do.
Oops.
I’m learning and stumbling through the work process and I still have the regular ankle-biter assignments that I have to knock out. (You know, annoying and busy work but still need doing.) I enjoy the freelance stuff so I’m definitely keeping that. And yet I’m unable to tear myself away from my feed reader and your blogs and the train wreck that is Rock of Love this season. (Seriously, not the same appeal as last season.)
If the new stuff is successful, it will be more work/more commute/more responsibility - powering through when I’m trying to power down. If it isn’t, it will be a weight off my shoulders but a failed attempt and I despise failing. I don’t know what I want the outcome to be.
Hint hint – here is a good chance for me to practice not wigging out about things that haven’t happened yet.
Yes. Right. The universe is benign, what is supposed to happen is what will happen.
Did I mention that I still haven’t told the remotely-located guys I’m working with that I’m planning a 3-month “vacation” starting on or about July 31st? That’s a whole other blog post though, one I haven’t written yet.
In the meantime, I have an empty house and Rock of Love in the queue on my DVR.
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March 25th, 2008 at 9:15 pm
Your blog should get really interesting in the days and weeks to come!…not that it isn’t always…but, you know. Can’t wait to see the decisions you make and how you clean the carcass off your vehicle.
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March 26th, 2008 at 11:34 am
“Ankle biter assignments” – Hah! Funny.
Isn’t that always the way? When you’re not looking for something (or not really ready) that’s when it hits you.
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